It's for the best, best, best.

I know it's for the best.
This is my chance, to take control of my life, to be better for myself, to heal and care for me. I was lonely before but now I've forced myself to focus on it more so than beforehand. I know I wan't to work hard and focus on the things that will help me but that part of me still wants to slump over in defeat because of this feeling. That's what they want. I know it. But what they don't know is that I don't feel these things for them, it's not for them and never will be, even if they think it is I won't let it get to me.

Nothing will get to me, not anymore. I'm holding the hammer this time and i'm not about to crack what I just rebuilt.

I don't need friends to survive